Ohmy dear lord, did I make the right move?
Somehow it seems wrong yet I feel its right. Ohboyohboyohboy someone please help me.
Anyway I am freaking turning 17 tomorrow!!!!!!! Jul5 jul5 jul5
Honestly, its like becoming a tradition to blog on Jul4. I've been doing this for 3 years in a row already!
I'm like becoming a big kid now. 17's not a small number, its 3 years away for 20. Omg won't it be so weird when I turn 20. I've nothing planned for Jul5 this year, normally there's no school on my bday but very very sadly, there is this year. I don't freaking understand why poly students still have school. We're the same age as Jc students and we're clearly not adults so we're youths so shouldnt we get youth day?!! Okay whatever, i'm gonna self declare a holiday anyway.
I'm getting lazier and lazier to write a thank you list this year. The people on the list are all the same, just that there are more additions this year. Okay whatever, its not as if the new additions will be reading this so no point blogging about it.
Honestly, it doesnt feel like my birthday is coming. It just feels like a normal day and there's no birthday mmood at all. I should go and create one and be really really excited when tomorrow comes! Okay I'm going to buy a cake for myself and put up a banner and keep the happy birthday song on repeat. Hahahahhahaaa omg so much effort just to get the birthday feeling.
I need to make the most out of this birthday. Its like a celebration of the fact that I have survived in this screwed up world for 17 years!!!!! :) Can't believe it actually, so many ups and downs, fights and smiles, screaming and shouting, laughing and crying and I bloody survived it all! My life really hasnt been the easiest, and I think its time for a change. I think its time I started showing people how I really feel and stop hiding any sadness or anger behind a smile.
Things are really different this year, I've got a new addition to my life and I've gotta treasure it properly without screwing it up. Goshhhh what a reflective post.
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